Tuesday, November 05, 2013
Don't really get how, in an organisation like this, with occupational needs as such, people get downgraded and looked down on for asking questions. It's not like everyone would have had experience coming into this. Not as if organisations don't do things differently and in their own way. So why are you punishing people for asking and clarifying, when it only serves to make things more efficient? Shame.
11:47 pm
Thursday, April 04, 2013
Really pushing the limits. But I'm gonna be the bigger man.
7:48 pm
Tuesday, April 02, 2013
That was so mature. So very very mature. Don't you have this feeling now, that we are so much better off now. That we're not stuck in a weird position that you put us in.
Tuesday, March 05, 2013
No right to ask, just because you're so busy. That feeling is just crap.
12:53 am
Friday, February 15, 2013
Can't believe how much it still affects me that I haven't found that thing that I'm good at. The thing that makes me, me. Always loved photography and the way that pictures capture things that can't be put into words. Always wanted to be the one who people were in awe of, the one who could silence people just from a single shot. Capturing that moment in time. But apparently not. I am not the one with that skill. SHIT.
10:52 pm
Sunday, January 20, 2013
For the first time this year, and in a very very long time, I cried. Not out of fear or sadness but of anger.
I knew there was a reason I didn't like you. You and the way that you do things and treat people. Well, low and behold, being nice has come back and bit me in the ass. For the best part of an hour, I was cursing you non-stop. Cursing you for taking something that I was looking forward to, and changing it into something that YOU wanna do. Inviting your friends and family along to something that was meant for me and her, and something that you clearly said you weren't interested in. Thank you.
You really must not know much about manners. When normal, polite people do this, they ask first. They ASK the person who planned the event if they had any objections with asking others along. Others the original person is not comfortable with and doesn't know. Other who don't even acknowledge the presence of the original person even though it is a familiar face for the past 2 1/2 years. Thank you so much. Thank you for nothing.
I really wonder what its gonna be like getting stuck with you on a project. I hope you don't do your part so I can safely mark you down on peer evaluation.
1:32 am
Saturday, January 05, 2013
Every time you do, you give something to the person you're with. (:
- Camille
9:25 pm
Tuesday, January 01, 2013
And so, another year has passed!
At this time of the year, you can't help but look back on the year that just passed. Things that you've achieved or failed to, and the things that impacted you the most.
This year, I am left wondering about people. Maybe it's just the events in life that have come to light recently, or the constant things that have been plaguing the family these few years. It's the matters of the heart that seem to cause the most problems. Selfish desires that we all feel we're entitled to. For the most part of it, views of others do not really matter. But doesn't family matter? Are we that selfish that we're willing to give up family just because our heart desires something else?
The fragility of relationships takes a toll on bystanders too. Just watching what's been build up for so many years just crumble into pieces. It's painful. And depressing.
What can't people just talk it out. Lay it all on the table instead of hiding behind false pretences. What's so difficult. Stop going around the sides, trying to rally support from others when you know this is a battle you have to fight yourself. A battle that you created because of your choice. A selfish choice. If you want this so much, what's so difficult about putting your point across. Fight for your love. Stop causing problems. Stop being selfish.
So this year, I will face my problems head on. Fight for what I want. But not at the expense of family.
3:47 pm
Sunday, December 02, 2012
Of all the people in my life, you were probably the one who made me into the awkward bunny I am.
10:54 pm
Saturday, November 24, 2012
Everyone wants to be wanted.
7:42 pm
Broken down.
3:23 am
Saturday, November 17, 2012
Fell asleep watching the boy work. Glad he at least managed to get it all done. Productivity at its maximum (:
Yummy jap dinner at nex before that. One can never get enough of jap! (:
4:51 am
Wednesday, November 14, 2012
Caught god of carnage with the girls tonight! Really good show I must say! Very good play-writing and awesome actors (*gushes! adrian pang*) I think our whole group is kinda obsessed with adrian pang and his works!
Anyways, really had a good time watching this play. Was treated to good laughs throughout the show with witty humor and outrageous antics. The dialogues were very believable I must say. Could really imagine myself having the same response if I were put in that same situation. The characters were very real as well, stuck to their characters and gave a really good insight into their minds.
All in all, a really nice food for the soul in the midst of exam preparations! (: Love attending the occasional play and sharing the time with the girls. (:
Dropped by haato & co for a little ice cream treat after the play since it was only 75 mins. Shared some yuzuberry/passionfruit and hazelnut/milktea! Yumminess (: And we've since discovered that we can get so brutally honest it gets funny!
Love you darjeelings <3 p="p">
1:56 am
Monday, November 12, 2012
I may be going,
But I'm leaving something of myself behind.
8:40 pm
Friday, November 02, 2012
Okay so its 27 days till the start of exams! I better start studying (for real) again! Shall get my tutorials in order and start the revision process! Can't believe its the 2nd last time I'm gonna be doing this!
On another note, finally bared my soul this week. Hopefully its for the better and not the worse.
12:23 am
Tuesday, October 30, 2012
Pains me to see the boy so hard at work on his first major project after so long. All the blood, sweat and tears staying up overnight just to rush the report out (which isn't even his part) and then getting his presentation in order. Who would have thought that he would come across bigger slackers in his first year than me in my 2 years in school! And to think his school was one that is famous for chionging and hard core mugging!
Anyways, all comes back to the point! 8 people in a group is totally not conducive for effective project work at all. Or maybe the university is trying to do as my mother says, show their students that 4-5 people is really the optimal and that with 8, people will really slack. Thats before they go out into the working world, and just to prove a point. Hmmm... food for thought eh!
Anyways, just realized how much this second (unwanted and unnecessary) presentation is gonna hurt my group! 7 questions, with a million and one parts to each one! Oh god, help me please! Well, I attempted to do some of them. But mostly, I'm failing. Derivatives really ain't my cup of tea. Shall hope and pray that we get it done tmr during the meeting! :D
1:19 am
Monday, October 29, 2012
Been kinda hooked onto the fifty shades trilogy recently. Amazingly, have finished the first 2 books these past 3 days and I'm onto my third already! Quite apprehensive about telling people I've been reading the books but oh wells, no one knows this blog is alive so yes.
Its been quite interesting I guess, all the explicit details put into writing. Not a common asian thing to read and talk about. Super glad that its in pdf form and reading from my phone, no one else knows whats going on. Really like the style of writing though, intriguing and captivating.
Guess I'm just on this book phase again, doing something that I haven't been back to in a long while. Shall do this more often when I get the iPad mini! :D (or kindle. I still haven't come to a decision on which one I like better!)
2:36 pm
Tuesday, October 23, 2012
just little reminders
1. take on challenges! ain't that what life's all about? the new unexpected things that come your way as you grow up and move on with life. i've always been lying in my comfort zone, sticking to what i know and not venturing outwards. it's time to change! now with the new life ahead of me! this is really gonna be interesting! (peak! here i come!)
2. let go a little not everything has to be controlled and held on tightly too. recently, i've come to the realization that what i hold on too tightly to might just wrestle out of my grip and slip away. things change and people move on. but if you let things just happen normally and appreciate things that are there and not be fixated on all that's lost, you learn to love more. even though its hard sometimes, space is always necessary
3. you're not young anymore come on! i'm graduating in a year?! A YEAR! (a little less but yes, still a year). really can't believe that my educational journey is coming to an end so soon! have so many goals and things to fulfill before going into the working world which i hardly think can be fulfilled by that time, but oh wells. will sure aim to try! just feel that i haven't really lived, enjoyed the party side of youth and all the crazy stuff. but being the way i am now and having the friends that are by my side, i wouldn't trade it for the world
4. spend a little more time with the girls yes we go for our little drama outings and foodie trails. but feel a little disconnected since they're all in nus and only the few of us are in pulau ntu. kinda miss the way it used to be all those years ago. need to reconnect and spend more quality time i guess.
a little food for thought on night 2 (:
11:08 pm
okay so its a super slack semester this time round. kinda not used to all the free time for me to slack and do my own stuff. but the boy's getting really busy this period and i need to find things to do to fill my time! (therefore the blogging) but oh wells, should actually catch up on the work that i'm supposed to be doing.
