Friday, July 08, 2005
shittified. today is totally shittified. its like total crap. utter disappointment. i mean the day is like totally wasted. totally useless. gone. had the last training before the actual start of the c'div com. it was like my hits totally sucked. they kept going right instead of going straight and all. and its like coach expects me to take the hits from the sidelines. shall practice on monday morning and during recess. shall perfect it or else will get super scolding from coach. i mean its like he's totally biased. i mean he was like totally picking on yuai today. everything she did wrong he will like sorta scold her and correct her mistake in front of everyone. and it was like totally obvious that he was disappointed even when he didn't sae anything. the expression is there. just hope that i am not the next target. i need to improve my dribbling and all especially my tackling. its like sai. i mean i can't even get past the simplest of players. now thinks that i should actually concentrate on the tackling bit. should be more aggresive and read the pass and the next move too. i just wanna sae something to coach. hello! people are tacking like 8-10 players at one go one after another. how do you expect us not to be tired and panting. i mean its also a mixture of nerves and also we are supposed to follow the player and anticipate their next move and all. and right after we have tackled the first player. with no break whatsoever we have to get into position and tackle the next one. i mean its tiring work lahhx. can you please try to understand. we are not like you. we still need training. and we still have alot of areas of improvement. its not like we don't try. its just takes time. give us time. we are not the seniors. they are good. that we know. but we still have a long way. we are still training. we put our heart and soul into the training. its not that we don't try. we do. try to understand. its just very frustrating. to tell you the truth. it somewhat makes some of us lose interest. its sad. the next bit is to vent my anger: a little change for a day does not make much of a difference. its not like its for life. maybe you should think about it. it doesn't mean that you have always been doing stuff with this person and when there is a change you can't stand it and it must be your way. it gets irritating. everyone has realised it too. maybe its just you. or its just me. but its quite childish and nonsensical. and i just don't understand it. its just wierd. its not normal to me. i still don't understand it. think about it.
