fly.

2010-04-04T01:09:00.002+08:00

every single day brings occurrences that lay completely outside their forecast, but they could not figure out that they had not forecast them. much of what took place would have been deemed completely crazy with respect to the past. yet it did not seem that crazy after the events. this retrospective plausibility causes a discounting of the rarity and conceivability of the event.
-nassim nicholas taleb.

2010-03-21T00:03:00.002+08:00

erica needs to stop buying blue things. especially when they are in the same shade of blue. even though its really really nice.

really cant stand filling up uni apps. it just reminds me how little i have done in my life and in school. RAHH. and the stupid thing just refuses to save itself you know. hmmm. i think its the lack of sleep getting to me. this therefore starts the self promotion period where everyone talks themselves up and all the small little things in life just suddenly become oh so important.

on another note, i have this sudden craving for prata! jalan kayu prata! mmmmm. yumyum. anyone wanna go with me? :D

2010-03-15T22:36:00.000+08:00

After all that's said and done, I'll just go back to the same phrase

Pin your wings down.

2010-03-06T18:50:00.001+08:00

its finally over. this whole A level saga.

everyone's feeling a whole wide range of emotions. me included.

I guess its the whole feeling of not knowing what's gonna happen next. I really envy those people who know what they wanna do in life and what their calling really is. I would kill for that feeling and sense of belonging. Some people might think I'm stupid and irritating for thinking this way. Cus I have the option of doing many things. But this is my life that I'm deciding right here and right now.
Its just the feeling that I'm gonna regret decisions that I make now later on I guess. The uncertainty that I'm just plunging into a deep black hole.

But nonetheless, I'm thankful for everything so far. Thankful for having some options. Thankful for people in my life. Thankful for the memories that fill my life.

2010-02-26T22:43:00.002+08:00

if we crawl
till we can walk again
then we'll run
until we're strong enough to jump
then we'll fly
until there is no end
so lets crawl.
btl. ily.

2010-02-22T19:32:00.003+08:00

weighed down by the late night and surviving purely on caffeine, she sat down at the desk, ready for another day at work. its only been 3 weeks and she's just getting settled down into the daily routine of things. she's excited, a little. then, it came. it just took one single moment for everything to change.

all 70 odd of them joined forces and made her life hell. they didnt care what she was going through. didnt care how much she would have to go through. they just stayed there. slowly but surely, she sieved through them all. 23 questions remained unanswered. 23 people she hoped would be kind enough to give her their time. picking up the phone, she dialed the numbers one by one, trying her best to keep herself alive and sound pleasant to the strangers across the phone. she tried.

getting through 16, the day was wearing her down. then she made the mistake that she shouldnt have made. she didnt ask. she just thought. and she thought wrong. she apologizes. hopefully it doesnt come back to haunt her. she cant change it anymore. it was done. then the 17th stranger was rung. it was just a confirmation. but the confirmation was all that took to bring her down. way down. it was going smoothly, or so she thought. but then he asked. he wanted her name. then her surname. then her department. what did she do wrong, she thought. she thought she was doing okay. but apparently not. she was crushed. yes, she made mistakes before in the past, but this time, she thought she was okay. she was not. she thought she could handle it. she could not. she wanted to cry out. she could not. she asked her friends for guidance, for a shoulder to lean on, she was breaking down. they were reassuring, but just brushed it off saying it was no big deal. she couldnt. they joked that he was just flirting or wanted to praise her. she thought no way in hell. they didnt care. it wasnt happening to them. they couldnt understand that she was trying so hard to do everything perfectly. they couldnt understand how much she cared. for all the times that she screwed up already, she didnt want to do so anymore. she couldnt face herself screwing up anymore.

she couldnt hide from the fact. she did screw up. something did go wrong. she wanted to cry. blaming herself for all her failures. all the things that she just couldnt get right. but she couldnt. crying was just giving herself a reason for self-pity. she couldnt let herself show that weakness. she was supposed to be serious. to be reliable. but so far, she has failed miserably. she cant talk about it. she doesnt know how to. and the only person that might want to listen cant. she tried talking to others, they just dont want to hear. its her own fault they say, they wont be responsible. she's trying. god knows she is. she's just horribly lost.

and that, my friends, is murphy's law. pure and simple.

2010-02-20T18:10:00.002+08:00

pin your wings down
if it's over now
pin your wings down
just take a chance somehow.

guess there's no way to avoid it and change the fact that its coming. my whole ploy trying to just not think about it worked up to this point but just like great friends do, they bring you back down to earth. and in some cases the deepest darkest places in hell. i dont deny that i'm really really scared and that i think i will break down totally and completely when i get my them. i just hope i dont embarrass myself too much. this is an advanced warning to those who will see me in school on that day. ask me that question and be prepared for a bucketload of tears or just no answer from me at all. if you dont find me around, dont try to find me.

i have half the mind to meet the rest of us on that day (and jump off the clock tower in nj/hwachong). so wait for me okay waner. i'll go with you.

cus this is not the time to dream, cus you just fall back harder, back to earth.

2010-02-10T00:44:00.000+08:00

what's worse than bad...
REALLY BAD.

hopefully this week gets better soon.

I should really stop

2010-02-09T00:04:00.000+08:00

feeling...
silly that i'm sitting here and waiting, stupid that i actually am doing so.
silly that i actually thought things will change, stupid that i let myself think that way.
silly that i thought i could handle everything, stupid that i trusted myself so much.
silly that i hoped for something more, stupid to think that i'm worth that much more.

2010-01-27T23:10:00.003+08:00

for all that i've done wrong,
i must have done something right
to deserve her love every morning and butterfly kisses at night <3

2010-01-27T02:16:00.001+08:00

mommy, i'm scared.
will you hold my hand and show me the way?

2010-01-22T23:21:00.003+08:00

i hate it when you compare
i hate it cus i know i cannot match up
i hate it cus its a weakness of mine
i hate it cus she is so much better than me
i hate it when there's nothing i can do about it
i hate it when i'm powerless
i hate it when you doubt everything i do
i hate it when you think that i'm useless and dumb
i hate it when i've been trying so hard and nothing changes
i hate it when the pressure gets to me
i hate it when i cannot be proud of who i am
i hate it when you make me feel ashamed of myself
i hate it.

2010-01-21T22:49:00.003+08:00

can you tell its me? :D

2010-01-21T17:01:00.001+08:00

i just recently found out that taylor lautner was the absolutely cute little boy from the adventures of sharkboy and lavagirl. hotts ttm. :D HAHAHAHAA

"next time if i become prime minister i'll enforce a rule to purge all girls who dun shave. then guys who r gu niang's will be purged too"
my entertainment for the day. :D

2010-01-20T17:45:00.001+08:00

they lost.
kenna scammed.
waste my time.
fml. HAHAHAHHAA

2010-01-19T22:59:00.003+08:00

crazy bat. just squeeze your way through my window like that and scare the shit out of me! thank goodness you're out of my room!!!

2010-01-15T16:50:00.001+08:00

i had the strangest dream yesterday.
it was something about a karaoke competition and lady gaga's bad romance. imagine the horror. this definitely has something to do with wong yunjie! this is what shopping with you does to me! HAHAHAHA :D

2010-01-03T01:34:00.001+08:00

make a difference.
leave a mark.

2010-01-02T00:30:00.001+08:00

happy new year friends. (:

thanks for everything last year. and lets make 2010 all the better <3

2009-12-26T21:30:00.001+08:00

flight back is in 14 hours.
only 14 hours left in chilly japan with all the good food and the glorious trains! hahhahaa. and guess what. i'm spending most of that... SLEEPING! :D
hahhaha. best right!

anyway. this whole trip has made me love so many things about japan. the food, the blend of the old and the new, the people (to a certain extent), the weather!

my takebacks from this trip:

1. the emperor really doesn't like my family!
can you imagine every temple/castle/palace that we TRIED to visit was closed! hahahha. even the time when my parents went early, they closed the gates cus there was some function. lols. it was just not meant to be.

2. japanese kids are really cute! <3
i'm serious! really! but to tell you the truth, the kids in the osaka area are much cuter than those in tokyo/narita. but somehow they dont seem to turn out really pretty/handsome when they grow older. ooh. and i realised that japanese girls CANNOT live without their makeup! not one girl is without makeup. 90% of them wear boots too! and the guys dont turn out that well. (they're short too!)

3. the food here is awsome!
sushi, sashimi, bento, udon, ramen, teppanyaki, takopachi... you name it, they've got it! :D (of course there's macs too, which we somehow HAD to eat) you'll never go hungry here. ooh. and we had cup noodles for dinner last night. just for the sake of it. these are the kinds of things that you HAVE to do/try in japan. hahhahaa. supermarket dinners are superb! i think we had that like for 4 nights. yummy! :D the coolest/most unique thing i tried here? sea urchin sushi! :D it was awesome! kinda dubious at first but cool nonetheless. everything here is sooo fresh. they serve you like fresh sushi everyday! we queued for about 2 hours for the sushi but it was SOOOO worth the wait. (thank goodness da jie's friend was around to show us the cool places to eat!)

4. shopping is super duper depressing here. ):
everything is uber ex. but today, once we got over all the prices and got down to business, i think we cleaned almost all our money out! hahahhaa. i got presents for everyone! :D and myself too! we spent mostly on like clips and hair assessories. cus they were just about the only things that we could afford and were reasonably priced. my sister went crazy with the cute stuff here. its quite amusing! hahhahha.

5. tv here is lousy.
well, knowing me and teevee, we are partners. inseparable! hahahhaa. :D anyway. the first hotel was quite okay. cus we had like super drama and the cinema. which have decent english shows. the second one was lousy ttm. the only english channels were like bbc and cnn. landiao ._. but, i am happy to announce that today, the last night in japan... there is AXN and FOX! woohoo! ((((((((:

anyway, that's all for now i guess. will return with pictures (on fb)! :D
see ya soon! :D
(and yes, i'm coming back on the 27th not the 26th!)

2009-12-20T19:26:00.003+08:00

hello friends,
a little post from the land of the rising sun.
so far, the cold air and the nice jap culture have been wonderful. japan aint japan without the trains and all the food.

osaka, kobe and kyoto. :D
have been travelling by train so far. a 10 min walk from the hotel. got lost the first few times but we found our way around. the stations are super crowded and the signs are quite confusing but we managed. hahhaha. i swear japan is full of trains! you can take a train to ANYWHERE! anyway. i did super alot of walking this trip. i think we walked at least 10km everyday! but its kinda necessary considering the section below! (:

food food food food food!
gosh. there is so much food here! do you know there's this enormous triple decker unagi don! its crazy. everytime we walk past it we just stare. there was this cute old couple that stopped and stared also! HAHAHAHA. but yeah. i seriously carbo loaded this trip (and its not even half over!) but the rice is nice... (: i shall find cut down soon or i'll come back a balloon! D:

omgx. the kids here are super cute! they got chubby cheeks and the nicest eyes! i have pictures so prove it! (: hopefully they grow up to be as pretty/handsome. (and no, i am not a pedophile! my sisters think they're cute too!)

anyway, that's it for now i guess.
hopefully there'll be free internet from tokyo! but yes, see ya!
<3

2009-12-12T16:49:00.002+08:00

this is really really stupid.
went to the chinese sinseh with my mom just to please her. and came out with 5 holes and a bandaged ankle. pro right. my entire left leg was totally out of alignment.

anyway. have decided to go to malaysia for a short little trip. (:
hopefully there'll be lots of shopping and nice stuff. there better be.
so yes, see you'll on tuesday. :D

2009-11-06T21:54:00.003+08:00

check this out! (: esp for nick <3
http://keyboardforblondes.com/
super cool.

2009-10-28T23:20:00.000+08:00

happy national day :D

2009-10-26T00:51:00.002+08:00

alot of things that were said made alot of sense to me
maybe i am too critical
maybe i expect too much
maybe i just want to make things seem the way i want to see them
maybe i am just scared.

or maybe i was right all along.

2009-10-19T05:22:00.003+08:00

its 5am now. and erica is awake. no, i am not crazy, nick is the crazy one.

and aly too. she has joined the dementia club and gone crazy. she's laughing to herself in the middle of the room. its scary!

anyway. sister low is still sleeping. we refuse to wake her up cus she's not going home to sleep later. HAHA (:

/edit: its 7.10am now. i am still awake diligently doing my maths. but the rest are... sleeping. see! i'm so hardworking right! (: but i secretly think i'll just konk out later when i get home. hahhaha (:

2009-09-27T15:37:00.003+08:00

dinner with US and the astronaut

really nice place. great atmosphere. and fabulous company (:

2009-09-16T18:09:00.001+08:00

i guess i finally opened my eyes to see.

2009-08-22T15:02:00.001+08:00

shoot for the moon and if you miss you'll still be among the stars

2009-08-11T21:19:00.003+08:00

erica hates having sinus ):
erica's nose hates having sinus too.

a husband who can live without aircon/ a poor husband who cannot afford aircon/ a rich husband who can buy me endless supply of tissue!
-i have wonderful sisters ._.

2009-08-07T22:46:00.002+08:00

all i needed was a car/truck/motorbike/vehicle.
to make me feel better.

My name is Dug. I have just met you, and i love you.

123456789
can't believe i missed it.

2009-08-05T01:26:00.002+08:00

i remember the days that we used to say
"don't worry, cause A levels will be harder."

what can we say now?

2009-08-04T00:20:00.002+08:00

my eyes are open wide, by the way
i made it through the day
i watch the world outside, by the way
i'm leaving out today
i just saw hailey's comet she waved
said, 'why are you always running in place?
even the man in the moon disappeared
somewhere in the stratosphere.'

tell my mother, tell my father
i've done the best i can
to make them realize this is my life
i hope they understand
i'm not angry, i'm just saying
sometimes goodbye is a second chance.

-shinedown

2009-07-28T23:36:00.003+08:00

because someone demanded that i blog about her card, i shall be nice and oblige. (:

sunday 26 july 2009.
today is the day that waner wrote me a really nice card. well, basically erica was feeling sick while doing hypothesis testing and decided to sleep in the cemetary (aka bishan cc). waner, who was supposed to be doing her geog notes decided to write erica a nice card to get her to get well soon (K). she even drew in my kermit the frog jacket! :D hahhahah. but anyways, I LOVE YOU WANER <3

2009-07-24T21:29:00.006+08:00

so close, yet so far.
why does it seem that everytime i take 1 step forward, i end up taking 2 steps back?
liverpool was in vjc. sorry. its xabi alonso in vjc. plus sammi lee and kenny dalglish
cool photo right. was like an arms length away. (:

gerrard was acquitted. surprise surprise.

2009-07-21T22:45:00.002+08:00

and i don't want the world to see me
cause i don't think that they'd understand
when everything's made to be broken
i just want you to know who i am

and you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
or the moment of truth in your lies
when everything feels like the movies
yeah you bleed just to know you're alive

you don't understand

2009-07-11T00:11:00.006+08:00

over over over! cts are finally over! (:

benzene outing to clarke quay <3

2009-07-08T21:49:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY! <3

2009-07-06T02:29:00.001+08:00

1 day.
to the start of the test.
5 days.
to a little break.

unsaid things.

2009-07-04T22:41:00.002+08:00

today was absolutely funny i cannot not blog about it.

1. jo has a magician's bag. she can fit alot alot of things inside it! so for her birthday, waner wants a rabbit! and the never ending handkerchiefs. ((((:

2. jo has become a merlion. and hopefully she will not get stuck by lightning like the singapore merlion!

3. glen is the most gullible person on earth! hahahha. :D
me: eh. the moon is really bright today. why don't you point at it?
him: why?
me: just point luh!
him: ok... (points at the moon)
me: congrats. you will get a cut on your ear tmr :D
him: omg. wts! you suck!
(faces the moon) eh. its her ah. not me! serious. go cut her ear instead of mine! i didn't do anything to you. its her! HER!
me: hahhahaha. (laughs uncontrollably)

my day was sooooo interesting today. hahhahaa. (((((:

2009-07-03T02:18:00.002+08:00

erica promises to study hard and do well for cts.

STARbuckS (:

best of me. dp

2009-06-28T00:27:00.001+08:00

i hate the thought of finally being erased

was it something that i did,
was it something that i said
or the combination of both that did me in?

that's the best of me

2009-06-27T01:05:00.002+08:00

i just found this photo which is quite nice.

i love you meesiam! :D

2009-06-27T00:34:00.001+08:00

its one thing to know it.
but when someone reinforces it, its a different thing altogether.

gone.

2009-06-26T00:10:00.001+08:00

aly.
i am giving you a spot on my blog.
are you happy? (:

<3

2009-06-24T01:45:00.003+08:00

i learn new things everyday.

1. kinderjoy is THE new gift to buy
2. confirm that you have tuition before you go for tuition
3. everyone just wants to join the ____ club
4. please jump.

(:

2009-06-22T11:43:00.001+08:00

erica has just burned 500 calories! woots! :D

2009-06-20T21:36:00.003+08:00

quote of the night from ms low waner "the only thing i learned about from bio is birth control!"
elaine lim will be so disappointed in you!

join the b______ club! (:

2009-06-19T01:05:00.000+08:00

the mysteries of life.

2009-06-18T02:09:00.002+08:00

dream a little dream of me.

its getting interesting to say the least this past week. i have a lot to say and a lot to think about. things that have been kept hidden for months. things that have just come to light. still waiting for more to be revealed but well, the wait is what's exciting right. hopefully it doesn't take too long. cuz the wait gets a little too tiring after some time.

its the climb

2009-06-17T13:35:00.001+08:00

every long lost dream led me to where you are
others who broke my heart they were like Northern stars
pointing me on my way into your loving arms
this much i know is true
that god blessed the broken road
that led me straight to you.

2009-06-16T19:38:00.004+08:00

i shall blog in short sentences.

PICKNICK :D

next time, meesiam, yunjie and i are gonna come half an hour late to be on time :D

scandalising umbrellas were absent but pesky insects were.

"all my friend's brothers are girls"

camwhoring in the middle of the road :D

hot countryboy! HAHAHA. :D

US :D

2009-06-16T02:12:00.001+08:00

ITS PICKNICK DAY! WHOOHOO! :D

2009-06-14T20:51:00.002+08:00

i think therefore i am

A philosophical statement used by Rene Descartes, which became a foundational element of Western philosophy. The simple meaning of the phrase is that if someone is wondering whether or not he exists, that is in and of itself proof that he does exists. Descartes argues that the statement is indubitable, because even if an all-powerful demon were to try to deceive me into thinking that i exist when i do not, i would have to exist for the demon to deceive me. Therefore, whenever i think, i exist.

cogito ergo sum

2009-06-14T03:02:00.000+08:00

life on repeat.

2009-06-13T22:08:00.003+08:00

this is real, this is me
i'm exactly where i'm supposed to be now
i'm gonna let the light shine on me

now i've found who i am
there's no way to hold it in
no more hiding who i wanna be
this is me

2009-06-11T23:50:00.001+08:00

chillax session (:

everything will change, but ____ remains the same. <3

2009-06-11T01:59:00.003+08:00

i know i'm not exactly supposed to be online now but heck! hahahha.

i have totally transformed into ______! EH! i love how productive we can get and the childish things that we do. even though it may seem that we're ultimate muggers, i have fun! :D

5 simple words show that you care.

2009-06-10T00:34:00.001+08:00

you're crazy. absolutely nuts.

i'm here if you need to talk! <3

2009-06-09T00:18:00.004+08:00

it sucks that i'm this behind time and what's more, i'm studying with ultimate muggers. hahhahaha. (: anyway. i'm nice. teeheehee (((((:

2009-06-07T21:56:00.002+08:00

the smile on your face

lets me know that you need me

there's a truth in your eyes

saying you'll never leave me

the touch of your hands says

you'll catch me whenever i fall

you say it best, when you say nothing at all

when you're ready, let me know.

2009-06-07T01:18:00.001+08:00

unmotivated, uninterested, unloved.

another new day, more adventures await.

2009-06-05T02:07:00.001+08:00

half the time the world is ending
truth is i am done pretending

i never thought that i
had any more to give
pushing me so far
here i am without you

drink to all that we have lost
mistakes we have made
everything will change
but love remains the same

things playing on repeat. but i don't seem to care. (:

2009-06-03T00:20:00.000+08:00

god bless the broken road that led me straight to you

-rascal flatts

2009-06-02T01:58:00.000+08:00

Aly said,
'just want you guys to know that we are bound together by something much much more than just bracelets & its amazing how despite being in different schools (two ends of the world haha) we know each others classmates, cca mates, schoolmates, scandalous lives, and all. XOXO!'

I <3 US.

dui bu qi. i was mean. :/ i regret it.

2009-05-30T21:00:00.003+08:00

somewhere between all our laughs, long talks, stupid little fights and all our jokes, i fell in love.

i love my team. <3

350 photos in 1 day. (:

its not my fault i fell in love, you're the one who tripped me.

2009-05-28T22:24:00.001+08:00

and to me, its enough. (:

cos if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me,

and your heart starts to wonder where on this earth i can be,

thinking maybe you'll come back her to the place that we'd meet,

and you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.

so i'm not moving...

i'm not moving

2009-05-26T00:01:00.002+08:00

these are the times that try men's souls

the times that you feel like giving up and that nothing is worth it anymore. but you know that you just have to keep at it and know that there'll always be something waiting at the end of the tunnel for you.

there's always gonna be another mountain
i'm always gonna wanna make it move
always gonna be an uphill battle
sometimes i'm gonna have to lose
ain't about how fast i get there
ain't about what's waitin' on the other side
it's the climb

<3

2009-05-19T22:04:00.003+08:00

had my last pitch training today! i'll miss running around the pitch super many times until we are all tired, getting hit during set pieces, running for our lives just to get to the ball, and all the wonderful memories that we shared together on that field. i'll miss the blood, sweat and tears that we have laid down on the field, all in the name of teamwork and our work towards that common goal.

now all that's left is for us to get that goal/gold! (: i love you guys! (:

2009-05-17T21:17:00.002+08:00

stalemate.
what should i do now?
part of me wants to move forward. the other part doesn't really care.

thursday is the day.
the day we pit our strength against the best of the best
the day that we prove to ourselves and everyone else around that we are capable of more.
that we are hungry and desire more
we have it in us
we know that we are capable
now lets just get down and do it
its now or never.

stalemate.
what should i do now?
part of me wants to move forward. the other part doesn't really care.

i know you are there for me
but are you there with me

2009-05-15T22:28:00.003+08:00

estee wu! i knew you could do it! scoring 2 goals today for your first goals of the season. i'm super duper proud of you dear! and i'm super honoured that you thought of me the instance you scored. i love you! <3

i hope you're not emoing cuz that'll really suck. hope you're feeling alright and just know that everyone knows that you'll have tried your hardest and it just wasn't your day. take it in your stride and keep looking forward. (:

2009-05-15T00:19:00.001+08:00

symphony of voices! (:

2009-05-13T23:15:00.001+08:00

so its decided.

vjc vs acjc.

hockey a'div semifinals.

vj hockey (:

2009-05-12T23:24:00.002+08:00

you're the ultimate. instead of getting injured in a match, you get injured running for the bus. BEST! get well soon ok! and stop being emo! (:

semifinals on friday! i guess you could say that i'm kinda excited. but can't help but feel that nothing is what it seems to be. personalities clash and sometimes that gets in the way of things. i guess what i want to say is that we have to stick together. at least for these 2 weeks and think about the team as a whole and not ourselves as individuals. cuz even if you are the most talented player on the earth, playing for yourself is not going to get you anywhere.

to the hockey guys: even though today's match was really tough, we can all see that you fought hard and played your best. don't give up and always keep your heads held high. the scoreline didn't reflect the effort that you put into the match. keep going and know that we believe in you! (:

2009-05-11T21:40:00.002+08:00

alyssa tan is the ultimate.

aly, if i were you, i'll want him to treat me better than that.

watched volleyball matches today. interesting. jiayou for tmr's match! (:

musicfest 09

2009-05-09T13:44:00.008+08:00

musicfest! i guess it was fun but got kinda bored after a while. i seriously don't get why people insist on shouting full day and stuff at this kinda event. and not to mention that dumb emcee who kept entertaining the calls. just ignore them woman! anyway. i loved that i went with jacq. she's the ultimate! <3

special thanks to mr chauffeur collin tang, without whom we'd have absolutely no tickets at all. (:

the 38 gang at intermission. too bad its super dark. :/

with jacq, glen and jingrong. (:

jacq's fav picture, even though its blurred. (:
(:
met jacq at the 55 bus stop. where she saw the guy she went back home with. hahhaha. jacq the stalker.

went to cartel after. supper! (:

not that i want to say it but SOME people are so scandalous.

2009-05-07T21:00:00.002+08:00

finally got to catch up with the SN hockey gang. love you guys loads. (:

come on VJ, we can do it!

2009-05-05T22:03:00.001+08:00

that little bird is absolutely random.

2009-05-04T22:33:00.002+08:00

today was full of weirdness.

the first part of econs lecture was filled with taking about solar storms and the end of the world. morbid to say the least. and come to think of it, its the only thing that we talked about. -.- retarded.

anyway. the weirdness climaxed after training. clarice lee yong mei decided to say hi to her classmate who promptly decided to invite himself over and sit with the hot, sweaty and not to mention stinky hockey girls. sitting at the canteen bench, he decided to invite himself into our conversation and only contributed by adding a couple of insults here and there. the best thing is, that when the conversation was over, he decided to strike up a conversation with me. this is how it went:

(staring at my face) HIM: what's that?

ME: erm. a mole?! O.o

HIM: are you sure its a mole, it doesn't look round enough to be a mole

ME: -.- yes, i'm quite sure its a mole

HIM: are you sure its not cancerous? it looks cancerous to me.

ME: yes, i'm really sure that its not cancerous.

... (silence)

HIM: what's your name by the way?

ME: err. erica.

HIM: hi erica

ME: (out of politeness) what's your name?

HIM: (he said his name but i honestly can't remember)

so that's how my totally and utterly weird day went. wonderful.

2009-05-03T12:05:00.002+08:00

so i'll let you go

i'll set you free

and when you see what you need to see

when you find you come back to me

take you time i won't go anywhere

picture you with the wind in your hair

i'll keep your things right where you left them

i'll be here for you

oh and i'll let you go

i'll set you free

and when you see what you need to see

when you find you come back to me.

2009-05-01T22:47:00.003+08:00

went karaoke-ing for the first time in my life. have to admit that it was quite fun i guess. went crazy cam whoring and singing at the top of our lungs. somehow i think i have like chinese songs stuck in my head now. i wonder why... anyway. it was like our first complete benzene outing with nothing else added. (:

went for dinner with waner, nick and aly. nick who never fails to twist my words and make an innocent present for my MOTHER sound so dubious. aly and nick who still refuse to give up on a subject that is of total unimportance. had dinner at waraku and then shopping! (even though we failed to buy anything again.) I <3 US!

2009-04-25T17:44:00.000+08:00

what hurts most, is being so close.

2009-04-17T22:55:00.000+08:00

finally met ahms at bukit timah today. managed to drag her from the comforts of macs all the way to ccab for some hockey action. heehee. (:

can't believe i managed to let ahms convince me to go all the way to jurong point for some shopping and supposed dinner. hahhaha. omg. anyway at least i managed to go stationary shopping there! hahhaha. omg. rmb to let me show you what i bought ok waner! you'll love it! (:

2009-04-14T21:12:00.006+08:00

one down, many more to go.

we know that we didn't play well today. not to our full potential at least.

but this is only game number one.

melody and hanwei: get well soon ok. take care of your knees and i hope that you feel better. stay strong and know that we are all behind you. (:

2009-04-13T18:40:00.002+08:00

watching the guys play today just reinforced in my mind that the season has started.

everyone is all excited and ready to go. however, i can't help but feel nervous and scared. all the way vj hockey girls. <3

maybe its because i am unsure and that you have been bothering me these past few weeks. i don't know what you want to get out of being so mean and hurtful. you said that you'll always be there but sadly you have not been. 6 years and this is what has come out of it. you are no more than a person i knew yesterday.

2009-04-11T15:05:00.001+08:00

there's always gonna be another mountain

i'm always gonna wanna make it move

always gonna be an uphill battle

sometimes i'm gonna have to lose

ain't about how fast i get there

ain't about what's waiting on the other side

it's the climb

-vj hockey all the way.

2009-04-09T23:15:00.001+08:00

i actually don't have much to say about today. just that i hate the way you made me feel. its as if its my fault. but its not. i'm disappointed that i let you get to me that way.

feeling fab. (: #2 time. its fated. hahahaha.

pictures! the forest adventure crew.

2009-04-05T12:34:00.002+08:00

shopaholic with half of us. (:
i'm just glad to take a break from everything and enjoy the movie.
a special thanks to jo for loaning me her blazer to cover my freezing legs. (:
<3

2009-03-31T23:56:00.002+08:00

what can i say. just try and try again.

<3

2009-03-22T17:29:00.003+08:00

erica wants threadless tees! any kind soul wants to buy for me? (:
pretty please! <3<3<3

2009-03-21T23:11:00.004+08:00

all of US finally turned up today. we chilled out at cartel. (: everyone came even though people had block tests on monday. good luck! (:

ahms got skinnier (i finally can wrap my hand around her wrist!), and bolder (sitting down for herself). yunns got super duper lame, bluffing ahms that she wasn't coming today just to BOO her. char met kangan (aka employee of the month) at cartel. jo and nick sat opposite each other in case accidents happened (*ahem EGG). gossiping about the weird ch guys, planning to go down to support national matches (you'll are going also?), disappearing acts to the toilet, 9pm cakes, shameless demanding of presents (thanks ahms and yunns), the unanimous decision that they'll ride in MY car rather than nicks (: ...

this is why i love these people. <3

2009-03-21T15:54:00.002+08:00

villarreal vs arsenal

man utd vs porto

liverpool vs chelsea

barcelona vs bayern munich

lets get it on.

2009-03-21T00:33:00.001+08:00

erica has gone to the other side and the grass ain't greener.

2009-03-08T08:17:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NICK! (:

love you dear <3

(there is no pink but i'm just going to insist that this is pink!) hahhah. (:

2009-02-28T14:39:00.003+08:00

you're in my arms

and all the world is calm

the music playing on for only two

so close together

and when i'm with you

so close to feeling alive

a life goes by

romantic dreams must die

so i bid mine goodbye and never knew

so close was waiting, waiting here with you

and now forever i know

all that i want is to hold you

so close

so close to reaching that famous happy ending

almost believing this one's not pretend

and now you're beside me and look how far we've come

so far, we are, so close

how could i face the faceless days

if i should lose you now?

we're so close

to reaching that famous happy ending

almost believing this one's not pretend

let's go on, on dreaming for we know we are

so close

and still so far

2009-02-27T18:36:00.002+08:00

so many things have happened recently. SPA, x-country, and CT (which are coming up but not happened yet...but yea)

SPA was really horrible. for everything i studied and the whole entire format that i memorized... i messed it up on a simple formula. just because i do not take physics and hate the subject. great. wonderful. anyway. hopefully the rest of the report is correct and i won't die that badly. :/

x-country was honestly horrible. i ran my hardest even when people pangseh-ed. and i finished it in quite good time i thought. then at the end. at the very end, it was all destroyed. i think i lost 20-30 places. stupid stupid girl. 193 is still alright i guess. thank goodness there is no more next year. i shall be free. free like a bird. congrats to lynx cats though. coming in overall champs for x-country and TB for achieving what you set out to do. well done man! (:

i hate CTs. they cause headaches. :/

(p/s 6 days)

2009-02-21T23:51:00.002+08:00

spoken words that are forgotten and regrets.

i have no idea what i said but i certainly do not mean it. why did you have to go and say something about it to someone. now this relationship has turned into ice. absolute 0. thanks a lot.

2009-02-21T15:08:00.003+08:00

i'm bored again. horrible week in terms of ______. but i'll get through it. working on it.

stab my back

2009-02-15T15:06:00.002+08:00

to my wonderful v'day date: even though we were two lonely souls who only had each other and had pepper lunch on v'day... at least we are not spending it with our parents! or our dates didn't bring us to pepperlunch for the v'day dinner. hope you get your wish next year. have fun with cb. (: jiayou mugger! <3

ozone: thanks for a wonderful orientation and bbq. love <3

2009-02-13T23:11:00.000+08:00

the things that you say and you do hurt people.

you think that you are always right and have all the power in the world. maybe you'd like to think again. you are not all that mighty and all that great. the fact that you judge before even thinking and just merely assume just pisses people off. trust has to be built up. i thought you were nice and understanding. i thought wrong. you're just someone who is full of themselves and does not even think about others.

what reason did you have to doubt me. have i done anything to deserve this disrespect? you could have asked or clarified. instead, you assumed and guessed. this is what has become of that. thank yourself for all that you have caused. jerk.